The Scary Things In Life:
- Things We Tend To Remember.
- Or Possibly The Things We Want To Forget.
- The People We Grew Attached To.
- And The People We Lost.
- Our Thoughts Are Scary.
- Not Being Able To Let Go.
The Things We Tend To Remember:
Sometimes We Remember The Bad Stuff All Too Well. Not The Good. The Bad. Yep I Said It! Because It's True. You Remember Those Long Summer Nights As A Kid Watching Your Parents Fight. I Watched My Dad Leave. Worst Day Of My Life. I Watched My Best Friend Walk Out With Excuses. And I Also Recently Watched People Walk Out Of My Life When I Thought They Cared. But Being Me, It Tends To Happen A Lot.
The Things We Want To Forget:
This One Hurts. Because It Has To Do With The First Person Who Left Me. Yep! You Guessed It! My "Daddy". There Are Days Where I Want To Call Him. But I Can't, But I Almost Do. I Remember One Night I Got A Call From Him When I Was About 7 Or Maybe Even 8 And I Was So Happy. But When I Got Older My Mom Told Me he Called Me From Jail. And I Was Hurt. Thats Something I Want To Forget. The One Thing I Want To Forget Is When My Little Brother Asked Me Where Dad Was And The Hurt In His Eyes Broke My Heart.
The People We Grew Attached To:
Well. When I Got A Little Older I Decided To Not Put My Everything Into Relationships Be Because What If They Decided To Leave. They Eventually Did. Not Because Of Anything I Did. But Because Of What They Decided. But It Didn't Really Get To Me The Way I Thought It Would. I Mean I Miss Each And Everyone Of Them But It Didn't Effect Me As Much. I Mean Don't Get Me Wrong. Everything I Said Was True, Real And Full Of Love. But, For Some Reason I Learned To Let It Go. But The Attachment Took A While To Get Rid Of. Adios. "I Don't Want To Miss You Like This."
The People We Lost:
Ah. The People We Lost. Ever Have A Best Friend That We Think, "Oh My Gosh We're Going To Move Here, And Go There When We Are Out Of High School." But Then One Day You Look Back And Realize, That Everything Has Changed? So I Had This Friend. Who I Haden't Seen In Years. And I Liked Her. A Lot As A Really Close Friend. I Never Thought I Could Click With Someone That Fast. But I Did! And It Was Great! We Were Neighbors. And "Best Friends" ( If You're Reading This You Know Who You Are Off The Bat.) Until I Realized You Weren't Who You Put Yourself Out To Be With Me. You Were Different With Everyone Else And You Put On The Innocence When You Were With Me. Until I Got Sick Of It And Distanced Myself. I'm Sorry.
Our Thoughts:
Ever Been So Deep Into Depression That You No Longer Feel Safe? I Have. I Get Temporary Flashbacks. Remember When You Sad In Your Restroom And Thought, " I've Become Everything They Said I Would." There Went Your Self Esteem. Say Bye. Remember When They Said, " You Can't Do That, You Aren't Smart Enough." Well, There Went Your Career. But You Get Over It And TRY To Remember, " Just Close Your Eyes. You'll Be Alright."
Not Being Abel To Let Go:
I don't Think I Can Write About This One Because I'll Cry. But Here You Go:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q7BJuc3211I
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ishj_mmQN74
Till Next Time, I love you almost as much As i love the stars,
With Love, Lissette.
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