All Too Well Pt. 1,000000

"I love you,

 But I need to leave now because we're going to ruin each other."

He was inescapable, 

I didn't even want to try. 

His words we malicious. 

He spoke lies, and promised me things that

I knew were impossible. 

But, I believed him. 

With all the lies, I still saw the truth in you. 

With all the heartache, I still believed in you. 

Partially because I still loved who you used to be. 

I still wanted to choose you. 

I didn't want to miss you. 

I didn't want to believe the words they said. 

I wanted to believe you. 

But how could I? 

I thought I was going crazy.

I thought I was wrong. 

I thought it was my fault. 

I tried to bury the hatchet. 

I wanted you to be right. 

But you weren't. 

They were right. 

How could I not believe them?

I was going insane. 

It would've been a fine proposition if I was a stupid girl. 

I almost said your name twice. 

I almost asked them how you were. 

I almost did, But I knew better. 

Just like all those times before, 

I don't know how I got there. 

But, Right before your eyes I broke. 

I broke because I believed you over & over. 

I still want to believe you. 

It's impossible to be on my own side sometimes. 

Leaving you  was the beginning of finding myself. 

Leaving you was picking up my own pieces and putting them back together, 

For the sake of myself. 

"You called me up again just to break me like a promise. 

So casually cool in the name of being honest. 

I'm a crumpled up piece of paper lying here, 

'cause I remember it all too well."

CA,

There we are again, When I loved you so. 

back before you lost the one real thing you've ever known. 

It was rare & I was there. 

I'd like to be my old self again, But I'm still trying to her.