some type of sadness

Air suddenly felt difficult to breathe. 

tears felt meaningless. 

the words were no longer coming to mind

when i thought about my sadness. 

i never thought id feel this way when it came to you. 

i never thought id feel like a burden again, 

i never thought id feel any type of sadness when it came to you. 

you were a safe place.

i never thought id get to this point. 

i thought i was happy. 

i thought i was safe. 

i thought i was in a good state of mind. 

sometimes i feel like im in a box, 

and the box is filled with my thoughts

and im suffocating myself with them. 

i adore you, but i feel like im the problem. 

i told myself i wouldn't look back.

I've looked back to happier times

times where we made each other happier. 

i dont know if i can get back to that place

of feeling free and in love without limit. 

ive never felt this way for anyone. 

i want so badly to feel in love 

again.