waiting for you

 It was a long journey. 

I have once again, lost myself. 

She’s far gone. She’s drowning. She thought she was swimming. She wanted to swim. 

The land was so far out we lost track of the way back. 

I once memorized the way back but I was so far gone from the way. 

I don’t feel myself. I feel nothing at all. I’ve been used, I’ve grown tired. I just want to lay down. I want to rest my head and not open my eyes again.  

All I wanted 

Was all I had. 

I thought I had it all. I let myself fall. And I was the one who was left down there. 

Cold, alone, full of memories. 

my hat’s fallen. 

My heart is swollen. 

I feel more pain than I’ve ever felt. 

I’ve climbed down my chair. Dusted my shoulders. 

I’ll be okay. 

I always 

Am okay. 

I will stay okay. 

Liz you can push through. Close your eyes. Remember who you were before the fall. 

Remember what you were living for. Remember what you had. Remember the confidence, remember yourself in this dark time. Go back and reach for her. She’s still down. She’s trying to get up. She’s been trying. She’s been fighting. She can push through. 

“when shit gets weird we can switch up gears.” 

L 

think I just might be alright.