Wednesday, February 24, 2016

Loving him was Red.

" I'm not much for dancing but for you I did." 

When I turned 18, I feel like I had the world in the palm of my hand. 
I had the ability to do the unthinkable. 

I was hurt when I moved out of my parents house. 
I felt like someone robbed me. 
And I was determined to get my revenge. 

What I did was, Play the part. 
Play the "I'm so in love with you it hurts"
Part. 
It wasn't hard.
I knew that feeling like the back of my hand. 
I played the part with someone who knew me so well. 
Obviously he didn't because he fell for it. 
He had played me and had my heart for the past 5 years. 
Unfortunately, He didn't see it coming. 
I hadn't seen him in 3 years. 
Remember when I said his love was Red?
Him. 

He claimed he still loved me. 
I saw through his lying teeth. 
He didn't love me! He wanted what I had to offer. 
SO, I was with him for a good month. 
I made him fall in love with me. 
I played the "Im new to this" game. 
And he fell for it. 

It was the most simple revenge. 
I did to him what he did to me. 
He made me love him! 
He made me realize that what I wanted wasn't possible ever. 
I took a step back without him. 

i haven't gave it thought at all after I had done it. 
I just left. Just like he used to. 
But, I didn't come back. 

I don't plan on coming back. 
If you're reading this, I hope you know that I'm not sorry. 
I did what I did for a reason. 

The way I loved you was treacherous. 
The way I chased you was dangerous. 
I liked it. 
When I loved you, I knew it was you who would teach me. 

What you've failed to realize is that I waited for you. 
5 long years. 
I was baby. 
But I knew what I wanted. 

You're too late. 

Look before you fall, Just like I did. 

CA. 

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