Terrible Twenty's.

I've always had high expectations. 

Especially when it came to you. 

I've realized now that I'm older, I've fallen in your footsteps. 

I'm on the path of motherhood. 

When I was younger I decided I wasn't going to be like you. 

It was against my own beliefs. 

I would't become this negative person! 

Eventually I did. 

I started seeing a darkness in everyone. 

Especially myself. 

I started seeing the side you pointed out to me that I never seen. 

The dark side. 

Eventually I lived with that "dark side". 

Made it my friend. 

I'm now telling myself I wont be like that with my daughter. 

But, Who knows? 

I saw the darkness in myself. I saw the darkness in you,

Eventually I'm hoping to never be this way. I'm hoping to change. 

I wanna see the beauty in everyone. 

But how can I ? How can I when I don't even see it in myself. 

How can I when all I've seen is rain. 

It's a dark world. 

We're a dark family. 

& were a dark society. 

There is no change. 

There is no light. 

There is no salvation. 

All we have is ourselves and our darkness. 

G.F.C.